Ribs_Writes

How badly I wish to indulge in something I see people around me in, how I wish I could get loved the way I see others getting loved, how hard could it be to believe that certain things take time or may actually never happen, how despairing is it to live with rejections, how arduous is it to change thyself when I know that the personality and aura I hold is really hard to love. But how do I even try changing when I am so crazily in love with the chemistry I have with myself. How do I trust this crazy go-round world which constantly tells me to be everything but me? How do I cage my racing heart which tells me to love what I have right now, be mad and wild, and be whatever I can be while I still have this little life? You either become what you decide for yourself or you follow what others decide or expect out of you. The break in the cloud is it’s you who gets to make a choice. Whatever you do, whatever you say doesn’t always have to be conventional. Life might be testing you but you do...

I recently read somewhere, "what if we are eternally supposed to be sad, momentarily happy." It took me a minute to process this, my world nearly paused for a while. Do we ever think about when we were happy? When was the last time I was actually happy?  No, not I am on the trip happy, or I just got a new dress happy, or I had my favorite meal happy. Just happy, happy when something out of the ordinary was not happening. To my surprise, I couldn't recall anything like that in years. I thought I was doing fine, but turns out I wasn't. When all I have always wished for is happiness, it was pretty ironic that I wasn't feeling any of it in my recent present.  I don't know when life became so hard that little things that stir up your life, started slipping away. When did the sadness became eternal and happiness became volatile? When did we go from devil-may-care to adulting so hard that it left us anesthetized? When did we go from being supremely optimistic to clin...

I aim for perfection, this is not just something I write in my CV, it's also a belief I have been leading my life with. I am as confident as one can get. I know what I want, I know how to get it and I have never been afraid to put it out there. The factors that render me confident may not all be ideal but it is what it is, how I am looking, how I am presenting myself, how I get down to things (remember, the aim is perfectionism) , how I am coming across people, how much I know about the subject I am going to talk about are a few of those. This is what I have given credence to for all of my existence (and I do not entirely blame myself). Imperfection is not a word you usually come across much. I heard it on Instagram someday a few years ago. I didn't pay much regard to it though. After all, society doesn't bestow us with concepts like embracing our imperfections. It was very late in life when I acknowledged the importance, well, to be honest, the NEED to embrace it. Because...

I don’t know who can relate, but one thing I have been noticing about myself for a very long time is that relationships bring out the worst in me. And here I am not going into the details of how they do not work, but I’m here to say why I am never the best version of myself when I’m committing to someone. I try to keep my calm, but I end up messing things up. I start feeling deeply at the point I’m just supposed to be knowing the person, I worry about little things, get insecure, get jealous, and maybe get a little clingy as well. I feel deprived when I don’t get what I expect out of the arrangement I have signed up for because I have always been of the view that adding a person to your life must add happiness, peace, and contentment. Instead, I land up with toxicity, pessimism, and questioning my self-worth.  If someone has no value or meaning to offer, how can it be worth it? I mean, like what’s even the point of going through all that trouble of letting someone in? Well, stickin...

I wasn’t done with you,  No, I wasn’t done with you, I wasn’t done with us, We had so much more left to do. We had to live a lifetime together, We had to go out on dates,  We had places to explore,  We had each other to discover,  We had to sit under the stars and look into each other’s eyes all night. No, I wasn’t done with you, We had vacations to take,  We had memories to make,  We had to take bachata lessons,  We had to adopt a dog,  We had to ditch the plans we made with our friends just to come home to each other.  No, I wasn’t done with you, We had to be spontaneous,  We had to watch every new movie together,  We had to bake cookies in the middle of the night, We had to conquer the world together,  We had to tell the world what we meant to each other. No, I wasn’t done with you, We had to pull pranks on each other,  We had to go on all those late-night drives,  We had to decorate our house together,  We ha...

Do you know why we are all the sad kids?  We are hopeful but we put our hope in the wrong things, Meaningless relationships, Dying friendships, Putting the pressure where there’s pain, Loathing for materialism, Sticking to the plan, A perfect grade, a perfect life, Running after unrealistic beauty standards, And, looking for validation from the people who don’t even deserve to be anywhere near us. We are purposeful but we have made it our purpose to run after perfectionism which makes us lose on the little things that are thoroughly capable of making us happy. We overlook the beauty of a glorious sunrise, a rousing cup of coffee, the joy of getting our favorite recipe right, the exhilaration of ceaseless learning, the elation of being around our favorite people, the pleasure of pampering ourselves, the merriment of a movie marathon night, and the chances life gives us to grow through our mistakes. Yes, life gives us numerous chances to grow through our mistakes. Where are we even s...

  Lessons Learned from 2020 Part - 2 1.   Being nice pays off It does pay off, directly or indirectly, immediately or after a while, sometimes in the most bizarre ways. Wait for it! Tried, tested, and highly recommended. 2.  Prioritizing yourself isn’t selfish. It is what it is! 3.  Do not mess around with people who are in love or if they believe they are. Extend them support but keep your rational opinions to yourself. Trust me, it is worse than texting your ex! 4.  Self-healing is the biggest power of all. Fix yourself cause who’s gonna come and do that for you. You know your pace, don’t push too hard if it’s not necessary, don’t rush the process, rather embrace it. 5.  Hard times reveal true friends And it will keep happening for the rest of your life. Think of it as a silver lining, coming out of the hardship on the credit side. 6.  Meet people halfway across, somewhere in the middle, don’t travel the entire distance on your own. It might be cute...