Ribs_Writes

There are always gonna be days when you'll have a lot to say, yet you won't be able to find the right set of words. There are always gonna be days when you'll feel too much, yet you won’t find a way to release all your emotions. There are always gonna be days when you'll have everything, yet you won't feel fulfilled.  There are always gonna be days when you'll feel empty, yet you won't find anything to fill in the void.  Some things will stop making sense, while others will start making a lot of it. Either way, both will add to intensifying the void you feel. You'll have everyone around, and yet you'll find yourself standing all alone in the storm. It will be fatiguing for you to relate to this world. You are just like this person who has lost the way back home, someone who can't see the light. You'll feel like crying for help, looking for someone who can take you out of this darkness you're stuck in.  You'll look around and you won...

Do you ever pause for a while and thank the universe for all those times it saved you from the things/people you thought you cannot live in the absence of but you actually ended up living pretty well without? When you look back at things from a fresh and unbiased perspective now, I am sure you realise these were truly the reasons for making your life miserable. All I have ever heard is not to GIVE UP! Be unstoppable, never stop trying, you can fix your own environment, have a winning mindset, and so I did. But, little did I understand, can you win over something that's not yours to win, can you fix something that's not yours to fix? All you have to win over are your battles, all you have to fix is your own goddamn self. It is not on you to mend everything and everyone's life. Crisis management is not your full-time job. Stop taking it that seriously. When everyone was busy preaching not to give up, I wonder why I didn't leave sooner? I wish someone told us that there ...

Do you ever miss some older version of yourself for any reason? Well, I do! I sometimes miss the things that made me, ME! I miss being an extrovert, I miss fearlessly telling people how I felt, I miss being impulsive, I miss my being "up for anything" approach, I miss my devil may care attitude, I miss saying "you only live once" before every crazy thing I was going to do, and I do miss being there for everyone all the time. And yet, I don't miss being super-nice to self-serving selves, I don't miss being walked all over, again and again, I don't miss getting my heart crushed, I don't miss being taken for granted, I don't miss people commenting on how I should be, how I should act, what to do, what not to do. Yes, I did lose a part of myself in the process. And it was not an easy process to go through with. It took me over a year to finally start admitting to the changes I was going through, knowingly/unknowingly. There was a lot of resistance, ...