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I came across this very Instagram-y quote years ago. It said - the people who break you are not the ones putting you back together.

The forgive and forget in me was personally outraged by this. The number of times I have let people back in my life who did not deserve to is honestly offensive to a person with even a tiny fragment of self-respect.  

But I was always of the view that there are certain decisions you make
When you are furious at things,
When you cannot see the light,
When you are not high on hope,
When there is nothing left to fight for, 
When all you end up with is nothing but a few shattered pieces of your heart.

However, in the above-listed situations, your ability to think clearly is compromised. Given some time, you clear your head and try reconsidering your decisions. Honestly, there’s no harm in doing that. Anyway, who wants to lose on the best things in life because of some moments of hot-temper.

Times changed, trauma heightened up, I wisened up and eventually understood that before revoking your decisions, clear your head again. Because if the people who broke you were the ones to fix you, they wouldn’t hurt you in the first place, they wouldn’t be the ones disappointing you, they wouldn’t be the ones making you feel like an absurd fool. 

We generally have this tendency of going lengths to save a relationship, but we hardly understand that if it has to be saved, it was never immune enough :)



 

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