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It will always be very grueling for me to understand how prioritizing yourself makes you selfish?

How ranking your mental health over being an unpaid counselor to the people around you makes you self-centered?

How avoiding negativity in order to maintain emotional stability in your life makes you nasty?

How shutting people out, not because of hatred but because of the love you contain for yourself makes you an antagonist?

If for once you choose YOURSELF, you care for your emotional wellness before being readily available for others why does it make you so awful? Why do people around us have such a tough time accepting this simple notion?

Now when we have been normalizing a lot of other stuff lately, why not normalize choosing self-sufficiency over self-lessness if it's exhausting you emotionally and physically. Anyway in my opinion, if you cannot suffice yourself, you can hardly be a provider to others.

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