Ribs_Writes

 Do you fall in love with People? Moments? Gestures? Words? Actions? So, my dating history has been quite a blow but every time I’m involved with someone, I feel like this is it, he is the one. I believe I am finding the missing pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, enduring new feelings, being in my own world, but of course, not alone for a change.  Him doing basic AF shit feels extraordinary, his teeny-tiny efforts seem like a great deal, sloppy scraps of respect, trust, and equality fancy as a luxury to me. Not only do I stop here, but also I start compromising at each step, calm my own insecurities that should ideally be done by my partner, suppress what my instincts tell me and overlook all the signs which should be held critically.  Maybe because I have not heeded a little of what people around me experience in love, and that's why I end up setting the bar so low.  However, it may vary what/who I fall in love with - people, moments, gestures, words, or actions but one thing that remains

Every now and then something goes wrong in my life and I tend to believe that this is the worst it could ever get. While obsessing over my current situation, I usually recall every possible thing that has made me cry, broken me or, made me want to end my life at some point. It is like a string of thoughts, leading to one another and suddenly, all those apprehensions you buried somewhere deep in your heart and decided never to revisit are right there, back to haunt you. No matter how painful this entire process may get, one thing that remains consistent during all of this is that whenever shit goes down, I presume nothing could be graver than this but I always end up declared wrong and something even worse follows. All I do to bounce back other than cribbing about the situation (of course) is that I somehow gather all my strength to put up a fight, maybe half-heartedly, but I do. I grow out of it eventually and prepare myself for the next worst thing to happen, wondering and agreeing to