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  A few months ago things were not working out for me,  I stopped living I gave up on my will to live, I forgot my own self, the self that I have always given prime importance. From the person whose purpose in life was to make people around her happy, I became someone who couldn’t look for a reason to smile. I was trying,  I was trying so hard but I just couldn’t look at the bigger picture. There wasn’t a picture at all to look at. It was all dark and gloomy. I was dark and gloomy. But, I waited,  I was as patient as one can be, I waited for months but I wasn’t able to find a way to bounce back to life. Waking up every morning with a plan and witnessing the environment around you wreck every bit of it is a misery only the ones who have lived it can understand. Even so, I couldn’t see the light, I had to just hang in there, I owed myself that much and I eventually did, I came back to life, I am still coming back to life. It’s a process you do not want to mess with. Let it decide its own

  I had once fallen in love with a guy who was so self-absorbed and self-righteous that he would never give a tiny rat’s ass about how people who were a part of his life felt due to his words or actions. Unfortunately, I was one of them. No, I didn’t fall in love with the person he was becoming or he turned out to be. It was something I didn’t want myself to sign up for but I was already gripped into it and too afraid to blow it off. A mere thought of imagining my life without him would give me chills but he dragged me to a point where I had to let him go and that is when I realized that at some point you need to let go of a few people/things, you just need to accept that you’re better off without them, not maybe at an instant but in the long run you definitely are. And, here I am standing happy than ever and being on my own. When I go down the memory lane, it just gets clearer in my head why my life was so dark for a particular period of time. Turns out, he was literally the one block

  I look for you, I look for you everywhere I can In the snaps I sent you In the outfits, I met you In the late-night chats In the jhumkas you praised me In the songs, I sang for you In the letters, I wrote to you In the hallway, we met for the first time In the closet where I hide your things In the sketches, I made of you In the pictures, I have of you In the cafe’s we ate In the music, we heard In the movies we watched In the streets, we wandered In that cup of coffee In those people you left me with In the sunrise In the stars I look for you, Inside me Beside me Behind me I look for you at every possible place However, I seem  to  have  found  you  only  in  my memories!